Laura called Dave this morning. Jake was ready for his walk, will he meet her? Dave wanted to say no, but of course he could not. The chance to see Laura again could not be refused. It was a chilly breezy morning, she arrived bundled in a jacket, hair down on her shoulders, smiling.... Dave wanted to kiss her, to hug her. But instead, they walked for 90 minutes. He told her about the movie he watched Let Sleeping Dogs Lie and she blushed and turned away when he told her about the girl's dark secret, that she gave a blow job to her dog. Clearly they did not share the same taste in movies. He knew of course that Laura was more a Disney movie kind of girl. But he told her anyway.
Several times as they walked, he tried to get the words out "I love you" but, part afraid of embarrassing Laura, part of being rebuffed, he refrained. He would start to say something, then stopped. "You don't want to hear what I was about to say," he said. She replied "sometimes if you think you should not say something, it's better left unsaid." He thought that she knew what was on his mind. And clearly she was not going to reciprocate. Several times she got up to leave but then stayed... Finally, as she was leaving, he put his arm around her, he could sense her pulling away. He suggested to her that she pass his number onto another girl in her building who he had met briefly and thought might be interested in him... Thinking that perhaps, if he could move on, the heartache that was crushing him would be eased.
After she left, he wanted to text her, to say, "For 90 minutes I've been on the edge of blurting out I LOVE YOU." But he didn't. Because, underneath, he was a wimp. A wimp afraid of losing her forever. Of being rejected.
Do you have advice for Dave? Please leave a comment. He could use your help :)
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- Vahri
- A thirty-something Scottish woman with sensual, vibrant, exciting sex on the brain ... and a PowerBook to divulge her deepest fantasies to the blogosphere.
1 comment:
Dave I'm sorry to read about your problems. Nice blog though. Advice? Well I think the ball is in her court now. If she is so weirded out by your confession of the crush that she can't face you, or oblivious to your pain, well you know that her feelings for you were shallow to begin with. She does seem self-absorbed from what you have told us. The fact that she has been separated for 16 years and has not had a lasting relationship tells you something. Maybe "Other Guy" will lose interest once the excitement of screwing a hot girl is over and hearing her talk all the time begins to drive him crazy. Doesn't mean she will come after you though. You could stay in touch - maybe an occasional cute text message - and "keep your iron in the fire" but I think it will screw you up mentally. Better to work on finding a replacement love, someone that actually loves you back!
Good luck.
Vahri
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